nothing I can do now

you sit across the room now
we don't talk
we don't smile
we don't laugh
we don't hug
we don't kiss
we don't touch

we used to
it all changed one day
I don't know how to treat you
I hate you at times
I love you all the time
I want you gone
I want you here
what am I supposed to do when around you?

I used to be able to kiss your neck
I used to be able to touch you whenever I passed
I used to be able to hug you
I used to be able to sit with you on the couch

I cry every night because I can't do these things

you haven't treated me the same since you told me that horrible day
you act like you count the days until I am gone
you act so cold around me
you act like I meant nothing to you

Am I being punished?
Are you getting back at me?
I know I did wrong
I can't change that
I wish I could

There is nothing I can do now...