Quicksand :-(

Right now I am going through the most difficult time in my life. Some people know why, most do not. That is how it will remain for the time being. People may figure out my problem and I don't care. It will feel like a weight of embarrassment lifted off my shoulders.

Confusion, hurt, anger, depression, happiness, hope, anxiety, hunger, exhaustion, worry, afraid, lonely, desire, rage, uncaring, hate, love...I am on a roller coaster.

I am trapped in quicksand
The more I struggle the further it slips away
It appears promising
It appears hopeless
Tearing me apart inside
Breaking me down on the outside
Why fight
Giving up is so much easier
My instinct is to run
I wont
They are all I have
Move On
Not what I want
What I want doesn't matter
I take full blame
I have to live with that
Sorry